lost…?

I’ve been mulling these past few weeks over the amount of work that is made but eventually lost. This feels most relevant in regards to COVID-19 and the loss of income and performance opportunities for dancers. As a dance-maker, this past year been difficult. Last March, I was close to having a premiere of Bottomfeeder before the city was shut down. Due to the finances of dance making, we may not have the funding to remount this work. Needless to say, the collaborators and I are all feeling this loss of a three-year process, tons of fundraising, and some exceptional dancing by Mary Read, Eleanor Smith, and Kamilah Udomsap.

Sadly, the process of making and losing in contemporary dance is not new. There are many works that I have made over the years that have not been seen to full production. I am not alone in this.

Although this work did not come to light, the ash of it and the work of the performers still exists within me, and within the work that I make. These performers have built me, and I am Also, all of these performers.